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Tuesday, June 2, 2026

Part 8: Spiritual Struggles

 


Case Title: “I Want to Pray, But I Feel Empty and Distracted”

A person says:

“I want to pray, but when I try, I feel empty. My mind walks constantly, and I do not feel close to God.”

This experience is one of the most common struggles in our Christian spiritual life. Many believers assume that difficulty in prayer means spiritual failure or rejection by God. Yet Orthodox spiritual tradition understands this differently.

The Orthodox Church teaches that periods of emptiness, distraction, dryness, and discouragement are often part of normal spiritual growth. They show the movement from emotion-centered spirituality toward deeper and more disciplined communion with God.

Spiritual maturity is not measured by emotional concentration alone, but by faithfulness, perseverance (ጽናት), humility, and continual return to God even during inner struggle.


1. Spiritual Dryness

1.1 What Is Spiritual Dryness?

Spiritual dryness refers to a condition in which prayer feels distant, lifeless, or without emotional comfort

It may include:

  • lack of spiritual comfort
  • absence of emotional affection in prayer
  • inner heaviness or emptiness
  • sense of God’s silence
  • difficulty concentrating during prayer

This condition can be painful because the soul desires closeness to God while simultaneously experiencing inner emptiness. However, spiritual dryness often signifies not God's absence, but His deeper work in the soul.


1.2 Biblical Witness

ነፍሴ ሆይ፥ ለምን ታዝኛለሽ? ለምንስ ታውኪኛለሽ? የፊቴን መድኃኒት አምላኬን አመሰግነው ዘንድ በእግዚአብሔር ታመኚ። (Psalm 42:11)

The Scriptures repeatedly show that even righteous people experienced inner sorrow, silence, struggle, and spiritual tiredness. The saints did not always experience emotional comfort, yet they remained faithful.

Even Christ Himself prayed in agony in Gethsemane.


1.3 Purpose of Spiritual Dryness

In Orthodox spirituality, dryness is not viewed as meaningless suffering. God may permit such experiences for spiritual growth.

Dryness can:

  • purify attachment to emotional comforts
  • strengthen faith beyond feelings
  • cultivate humility
  • deepen perseverance
  • reveal spiritual weakness that requires healing
  • train the soul in endurance and trust

The believer gradually learns to seek God Himself rather than spiritual pleasure.


1.4 Patristic Insight

As St. Isaac the Syrian (613  – 700 AD) teaches:

“Temptations are beneficial, for they teach man to know himself.”

Spiritual dryness often exposes the condition of the heart and teaches dependence upon divine grace rather than personal emotional strength.


2. Weak Prayer Life

2.1 Why Prayer Becomes Weak

Prayer weakens for many reasons, including:

  • spiritual negligence
  • excessive distraction
  • attachment to worldly concerns
  • lack of discipline and consistency
  • mental restlessness
  • unresolved passions and habits
  • exhaustion and overconsumption of noise and stimulation

Modern life especially weakens attention, making sustained prayer difficult.

However, while spiritual dryness may sometimes be part of God's deeper work in the soul, it can also result from a weakened prayer life and therefore requires honest spiritual self-examination


2.2 Prayer as Communion, Not Performance

Prayer is not merely:

  • an emotional experience
  • intellectual reflection
  • religious performance
  • ritual repetition without attention

Prayer is:

living communion with God

ሳታቋርጡ ጸልዩ…” (1 Thessalonians 5:17)

Orthodox spirituality teaches that genuine prayer grows gradually through faithfulness, repentance, attention, and humility.


2.3 Patristic Teaching

As St. John Chrysostom (347 – 407 AD) teaches:

“Nothing is equal to prayer; it makes the impossible possible.”

Prayer transforms the soul not only through emotional comfort but through continual turning of the heart toward God.


2.4 Therapeutic Understanding

Weak prayer often does not mean the absence of love for God. More commonly, it reflects:

  • lack of spiritual structure
  • inconsistency
  • weakened attention
  • spiritual fatigue
  • scattered inner life

The problem is frequently not desire itself, but instability and division of the mind and heart.


3. Doubt and Discouragement

3.1 The Inner Experience

During spiritual struggle, thoughts such as these may arise:

  • “God is far from me.”
  • “My prayer is useless.”
  • “I am not growing spiritually.”
  • “Nothing is changing.”
  • “Perhaps God no longer hears me.”

These thoughts often become stronger during seasons of spiritual dryness.


3.2 Biblical Foundation

ወዲያውም የብላቴናው አባት ጮኾ፦ አምናለሁ፤ አለማመኔን እርዳው አለ። (Mark 9:24)

The Scriptures reveal that genuine faith and inner struggle can coexist. The presence of struggle does not automatically mean the absence of faith.


3.3 Discouragement as Spiritual Warfare

The Holy Fathers frequently interpret persistent discouragement as a spiritual temptation that seeks to weaken perseverance (ጽናት).

Discouragement may lead to:

  • loss of spiritual focus
  • neglect of prayer
  • hopelessness
  • distorted perception of God’s presence
  • temptation toward despair

The enemy often attempts to convince the believer that struggle itself is proof of failure.


3.4 Patristic Insight

As St. Anthony the Great (251 - 356 AD) teaches:

“Expect temptation until your last breath.”

Spiritual struggle is not evidence that God has neglected the believer. Rather, struggle is part of the path of purification and growth.


4. Building Spiritual Discipline

4.1 Why Discipline Matters

In Orthodox spirituality, discipline is not lifeless observance of rules. It is:

the training of the soul to remain continually oriented toward God

Without discipline:

  • prayer becomes irregular
  • attention weakens
  • distractions dominate the mind
  • spiritual life becomes unstable

Discipline protects the inner life from fragmentation.


4.2 Forms of Spiritual Discipline

Helpful spiritual disciplines include:

  • fixed daily times of prayer
  • short but consistent prayers
  • reading Psalms and Scripture
  • silence and attentiveness
  • fasting with discernment and guidance
  • limiting unnecessary distractions
  • practicing watchfulness (nepsis)

Small, faithful practices often strengthen the spiritual life more than occasional emotional concentration.


4.3 Biblical Foundation

ነገር ግን ለሌሎች ከሰበክሁ በኋላ ራሴ የተጣልሁ እንዳልሆን ሥጋዬን እየጎሰምሁ አስገዛዋለሁ።”(1 Corinthians 9:27)

Spiritual growth requires intentional struggle, patience, and perseverance.


4.4 Patristic Teaching

As St. Basil the Great (329 - 379 AD) teaches:

“ Regular and consistent prayer turns the soul toward God like a plant toward the sun.”

The soul gradually becomes shaped by whatever it continually turns toward.


5. Applying the Case: “I Feel Empty When I Pray.”

5.1 Orthodox Diagnosis

This experience may reflect:

  • transition from emotional prayer to deeper prayer
  • spiritual dryness permitted for growth
  • weakened attention and distraction
  • inconsistent spiritual discipline
  • inner exhaustion or division

It is not necessarily spiritual death. It can be spiritual growth occurring inwardly and gradually, though it may also indicate weaknesses in prayer that need correction.


5.2 Therapeutic Response

1. Continue Prayer Regardless of Feeling

Faithfulness is more important than emotional sensation.

The believer should continue praying even when prayer feels dry or difficult.


2. Establish a Simple Rule of Prayer

Consistency is more important than intensity.

Short, regular prayer often heals instability better than occasional emotional effort.


3. Accept Dryness Without Despair

The silence of God should not automatically be interpreted as rejection.

God may be teaching endurance, humility, and deeper trust.


4. Strengthen Attention (Nepsis)

When the mind drifts:

  • gently return attention to prayer
  • avoid frustration and self-condemnation
  • cultivate patience and watchfulness

The struggle to return attention itself becomes part of prayer.


5.3 Pastoral Encouragement

ወደ እግዚአብሔር ቅረቡ ወደ እናንተም ይቀርባል። (James 4:8)

God is not absent during spiritual dryness. Often, He is quietly forming perseverance, humility, endurance, and deeper faith within the soul.

The absence of emotional affection does not mean the absence of grace.


Conclusion

Orthodox Christian teaching affirms that:

  • spiritual dryness is part of normal spiritual life
  • prayer matures through discipline and perseverance
  • doubt and discouragement are common human struggles
  • healing comes through grace, faithfulness, and continual return to God
  • spiritual growth often occurs invisibly and gradually

Thus, the question:

“Why do I feel empty when I pray?”

can be answered:

  • because spiritual life is deeper than emotion
  • because God is teaching faithfulness beyond feelings
  • because prayer is communion, not emotional excitement
  • because perseverance purifies and strengthens the soul

As St. John Climacus (579 - 649 AD) writes:

“Do not be troubled if you do not feel warmth in prayer; continue knocking, and it will be opened to you.”


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